fear

i was thinking today after hearing this woman, who is an intern in family med after completing three years of a general surgery residency - that fear at this point has stopped me from being great. She said, "if you hide in the call room, no one is going to come looking for you, you have to get out there." And i realized that I have been hiding in a metaphorical call room. Cowering away from questions, procedures, opportunity. why? because I am afraid of not knowing the answer, fumbling, looking dumb in front of my peers. Because its really not a fun feeling - looking dumb in front of your colleagues, your residents, your attending. Maybe one of our practice cases or standarized patient experiences should be practicing not knowing, fumbling around, looking dumb in front of everyone. i have escaped most humiliation but maybe its not a good thing.